To be the wife he deserves

Each person has a unique weight loss journey. We all have our own motivations, goals, and plans. Honestly, Mac is a large part of my motivation. There’s a rather unflattering term that floats around military life: depend-opotamus. The official meanings vary but always involve a grossly fat military wife. This is what I don’t want to be. I also don’t want to be the wife people look at and wonder how he ended up with me. Trust me, it happens all the time (not us particularly, just general judgment of how certain couples came to be).

I realize that I can get back down to the weight I was when Mac and I met, but I won’t necessarily have the same figure. I’m not 20 anymore. It sucks that you gain and lose weight differently. I just want to see myself like I do in these pictures. Mac doesn’t deserve fat, gross, lumpy me. He started dating a fit and happy-with-me version of me. I wasn’t happy with myself 30 pounds ago, I’m not totally happy now. But I’m getting myself back to that point. Happy and healthy. And that’s the wife he deserves.